It just goes on and on and on... "something is wrong, this doesn't feel normal... should I call the doctor? Am I losing weight? *gasp* Do I have cancer?!". The thoughts never stop. I've tried it all from attempted meditation (I think I might be doing it wrong) to big pharma, to even a holistic approach. Quick update, I'm still trying to find relief. To be out of control of your thoughts it's a crazy thing to come to terms with, being that our thoughts are the only thing we actually do have control over. So this is a blog depicting a raw portrayal of what it's actually like to not be in control of your thoughts and my numerous attempts on trying to get it back.